something made me very surprised and delighted this morning. :)

wang jian gave us back the ppr today, when mrs goh just announced that we're suppd to get it back on fri? lol. think about when i saw the numbers, was that i couldnt wait to show it to my mum. cos i i was dreading it, but now im loving it. i think?

sigh, maybe not. i didnt drop this term, instead i actually improved. and she's been demoralising me by assuming that my grades will drop, because of her (again) assumed distractions. but thn i started thinking, or rather i know already, her reaction. she'll just shrug at it, not caring. its always like this, you get bad grades, they react super strongly; you get good grades, they show no interest. maybe they dont want you to feel too complacent? but at least show some emotion, or that you're pleased or proud or whtvr. it hurts you know. more than you think. and this time, i really feel that i've done my best, i didnt even expect this of myself.

i hate this feeling, euphoria one second, thn sadness overwhelms. it sucks, really.

its always hot and cold? i dont really know you at all.